2011 and the search for grace
d : disposition to or an act or instance of kindness, courtesy, or clemency
b : the quality or state of being considerate or thoughtful
My paternal grandmother was not an easy person to get along with. Admitting as much feels slightly mean-spirited after the fact, but the admission is equally immaterial. The person she was had no bearing on the person she became. Like a lot of folks from the same era, she became senile in her final years, and while this had some bearing on her ability to function independently, in her instance it brought about a remarkable transformation; she became the sweet, affectionate, wonderful person most people expect grandmothers to be.
Whatever our original differences were, I no longer recall them.
So my new year’s resolution is not, per se, to achieve the same transcendental state or even necessarily to aspire to such a thing, but merely to devote more time towards meditating on what would make such a thing possible.
A bit of this was managed over Christmas — this year’s was the best in quite some time. I picked up the Lego Millennium Falcon for my brother and sister-in-law; what made it so great was the fact that they were surfing the web and actually looking at legos (and the Falcon, specifically) before I even had the thing wrapped. Yes, there is a massive lego collection involved that will be supplemented by the addition of Princess Leia (allegedly the one missing Star Wars minifig in the collection at the time).
We also got the place cleaned up and got some heavy garbage (a dead refrigerator, a derelict treadmill) out of here. The place was tidy and decorated by the time the mothership returned from the Caribbean.
This was good and necessary, as morale has been low, recently, and things have been tense between myself and the rest of my family.
Of course, the real reason I’ve been so quiet and anti-social recently is that I’ve become addicted to Minecraft.
Thing is, not only is this impossible to explain for someone who is a non-gamer, it’s hard to explain to someone that is. It’s not that Mojang (the company that publishes it) has failed to receive it’s due acclaim for the effort, but let’s be honest about how often something popular and well-hyped turns out to be an overwhelming disappointment on delivery.
At any rate, I’m apt to continue neglecting this blog and every other damned thing until I have a video to post or decide that as a builder, I’m too lame to be interesting. Either way, I’m out. Peace!